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I will always be that chubby girl in a crop top…

I lack confidence in many things and part of me honestly believes that my anxiety will come and take away everything I love eventually. Once upon a time, I loved drama and performing arts but now if I even think about acting or dancing, my stomach feels like it rolls over. Not good.

My body is something that I have always struggled to accept but not consistently. Some days I’ll wake up with an attitude like “wow, so curvy today. Looking fine. Kylie Jenner can eat her heart out because you didn’t need to pay thousands for full lips like those.” Then I have my bad days, where I just look in the mirror and wonder why a fat mess like me is even allowed to leave the house. It is as if my body confidence issues have mood swings of their own.

People rarely see that side of me though. I only choose to let people know about my insecure days when they are so bad that I just lie in bed making myself cry. If I’m around people, I tend to make a lot of fat jokes about myself as if I think I’m beating them to it. Being told that I would struggle to lose weight because of my PCOS only seemed to make it worse as on the days where I feel less confident I feel like there’s no way of making myself feel better.

That being said… I’m currently a UK size 14 clothing and once, I was a size 8 but even back then I had a tummy. I still thought I was fat. Ridiculous, right? The thing is, if you are truly unhappy with your body image, it actually isn’t your body that’s the problem. It’s your mind. You can’t fix your body to fix your mind, that’s not how it works. If I was as unhappy with a size 8 as I am at size 14 then I won’t be happy no matter what I do. It’s sort of like being in the mind of someone who suffers from anorexia, without you actually starving yourself. You see flaws that aren’t there.

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But like I said… I have good days. Some days I can wear a tight dress and walk out of the house feeling like a queen. Recently, I purchased a tiny black cropped top to wear on a girls night out. I’m the biggest girl in my group… oops! I saw it in New Look and I fell in love. I just had to buy it.

Despite my body issues, I’ve never actually been one to buy into that whole “dress for your size” lark. I’ll wear whatever I like to, whether it’s cropped or not. Even on my insecure days.

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So, when the day came to actually wearing the cropped top, it did happen to be on one of my bad days. I was crying in bed over my weight at 2 pm but I was out slaying a cropped top and leggings by 9 pm. Talk about mood swings?

I did get a lot of mixed reactions with some people remarking about “what kind of plus-size clothing store sells cropped tops to us bigger girls” but I did get a lot of compliments which made me feel much better about my decision. A few girls said that I had a “great, curvy woman’s figure”  and someone even said they admired my confidence at being able to show the top of my tummy. Some girls (more than guys, surprisingly) complimented my breasts, I do rock the cleavage when I feel like it.

I have let my anxiety and self-image take far too much away from me, my dress sense won’t be one of them. I rocked that cropped top just as much as a rock baggy tees and sweat pants. Society needs to learn to deal with that.

See, being that chubby girl in a cropped top isn’t such a bad thing, even if all your friends have tiny waists.

Be the curve queen of your group!

 

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That ridiculous BBC Gender Pay Gap…

The governement forced the BBC to release the salaries for its highest paid entertainers and journalists to the British public this week. Many members of the British public had noticed that there was a dramatic gap between the pay between male and female workers.

The BBC is facing a huge backlash after the list exposed huge gender and minority inequality as woman are beginging to demand action to close the pay gap. It was revealed that the corporation’s highest-paid presenter is Chris Evans, earning at least £2.2 million.

Claudia Winkleman, the best-paid female star, took home at least £450,000, which is around a fifth of Evans’ pay. Then there is Emily Maitlis, who did not appear on the list, which only details staff earning more than £150,000. Her Newsnight co-star Evan Davis earns at least £250,000. Maitlis, who is currently not under contract, is reportedly considering her future at the BBC after the revelation.

Just 10 of the 96 names on the list are non-white, with sports presenter Jason Mohammad the highest-paid ethnic minority on at least £250,000 – a ninth of what Evans earned.

See it for yourself here.

Now, some of the BBC’s most high-profile female stars are demanding that the BBC act now to fix the gender pay gap. Presenters Clare Balding, Victoria Derbyshire and Emily Maitlis are among those who have signed an open letter to director general Tony Hall.

Education Secretary Justine Greening said the BBC’s gender pay gap was “hard to justify”, while Labour leader Jeremy Corbyn said discrepancies were “astronomical”.

Something needs to be done.

Why everyone should love the new Doctor…

For the last feels days the whole internet seems to have been going wild over the Doctor’s regeneration into a woman… simply because she’s a woman. Really? 

To be honest, it got to Sunday and I was expecting everyone to be talking about the new season of Game Of Thrones but damn. I could not have been more wrong.

So, the casting directors of Doctor Who have cast Jodie Whittaker and I am one of what seems to be very few who are exceedingly excited by it. (Even of U.K. tabloids have published her nudes, she’s still amazing).

So here’s a few reasons why you should love the decision too:

She looks fantastic in the old Doctor’s outfits…


Colin Baker backs her… hitting back at sexist tweets. 

We all know the stereotype of women apparently being unable to park a car decently… urm may I remind you that River Song parked the tardis better than the Doctor?

But what I loved most was Colin Baker’s response as he believes it is a result for a man with daughters. 

He also tweeted this hilarious come back:


God, I love the old Doctors.

Speaking of River…

Alex Kingston offered her reaction to the announcement…

 “I’m always the damn cradle snatcher but she’s a really great actress, she’s fantastic. Oh my God, that’s so exciting!” – Alex Kingston (1.14) 

It has actually been said since the beginning that the Doctor can become a woman at any point – by the creators themselves. 

This was highlighted in the BBC’s response to the backlash… as well as the fact that she’s an amazing actress! 


But above all… she’s amazing all on her own.


Meet the Doctor

But there is one thing that we should be celebrating alongside the new Doctor…

The man who made many mistakes.

The man who was dragging the show through the mud.

MOFFAT HAS LEFT!!!!! #byefelicia 

See all the mistakes he admitted here.

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Racism On Dating Sites

Racism on dating sites is a real issue and those types of women make swiping right on tinder resulting in slightly awkward conversations that assume you’re a racist because you’re a white girl. 

There are still some women out there who won’t date a man because he is black and they actually tell these men that their race is what’s stopping them from dating. This obviously makes these men very insecure and they tend to search for a woman but if they match with a white girl, they hope she is someone who has dated a black man before, as if it makes them feel more secure talking to a woman who has been in an interracial relationship before.

I have spoken to men of a different race to me on apps and my social media and it always results in the same question…


I was puzzled as to why race matters so much. So, obviously I had to ask , at first they denied that it mattered but I stayed persistent and the answer I got was actually really sad…


I don’t understand why someone would match with someone on a dating site if they won’t actually date them due to their race. These men shouldn’t be made to feel like their race is what is stopping them from finding a partner. 

Imagine being so closed minded about race that you miss out on a decent man because of the colour of their skin. Wow, ladies…

PCOS Uncensored – The Acne And Body Hair Struggle

OH YEAH… How attractive?! Well… deal with it. The acne and the body hair struggle is incredibly real when you’re a woman with PCOS and trust me, ladies, I feel you.

Acne is commonly associated with the hormonal changes in teens during puberty but when you have PCOS, the struggle with acne can follow you all the way to menopause. Thick and excess body and facial hair are also a side effect of PCOS’s hormonal imbalance as the cysts of the ovaries are being created by an increase in male hormones in women, leading them to grow hair the way a man does.

If it wasn’t bad enough that infertility made you feel like less of a woman, you’re charmingly f*cked up hormones have thrown you into a life where no product you try and wash your face with will ever take the acne away and you probably grow a better beard and mustache than your boyfriend. Sad times.

I have recently been given a set of products by Arbonne to try for my acne (I will review it and let you all know how it goes, but I don’t hold out any high hopes).

The hair, though, well that’s obviously a lot harder for me to hide from the world and to be honest other people noticed it back in school when I was 14 before I had even seen my mustache growing in. Urgh. But, hey, at least whenever I get catcalled I can safely say I have a higher testosterone level than those creeps right?

I work hard to take care of my skin and hide my flaws from the world but sometimes it just gets a little bit exhausting. To be honest, though, my facial hair isn’t as thick as some women with PCOS, my main issue with hair is the fact that my leg hair grows faster than I can say my own name. I’m lazy. I hate having to shave all the time.

Sometimes I see articles and videos on facebook and in the news in which women have learned to love these so-called “imperfections” and I’m not going to lie… I get jealous. I wish I could love myself like that but unfortunately, I am still in the stages of trying to understand tat this is the way I am.

Does anyone else feel like that?

 

 

Art For New World – Rahel Takle Peirce

In this scary world of Donald Trump and Theresa May, with their fear-mongering antics when it comes to immagration, it’s becoming far too easy to ignore the beauty of diversity and just how talented people from all over the world can be.

Art is something that can take many forms and it varies all across the world.

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Rahel Takle Peirce is an award-winning artist based in London. Her art is seen to therapeutic to it’s viewers a it has been said that her work appears to have a “calming and relaxing effect.”

She immigrated from Ethiopia and has spent over 20 years developing her artistic style, using it as a way of surviving in what she describes as her “new world.”

“Every individual geometric design captures the colour, vibrancy and emotion of the moment. Each meticulously hand drawn over days or years.

The artist in her will never leave.” – Ramech Wall Deco

It is truly inspirational that this woman has come so far, turning her passion into a career in attempted to escape troubled lands.

Her art is truly unique and is a worthy example of the benefits that immigration can have on this country. It also shows her to be a great role model as a survivor, rather than becoming a victim of her past.

Most recently her work has been exhibited in Luxury Made, Olympia, London, back in September 2016 where she showcased the majority of her work.

She sells her unique designs online at Ramech Wall Deco and her work has been exhibited in many places such as:

  • The Kowalsky Gallery, London, August 2007

  • Solo Exhibition at Stoke Place Hotel, Buckinghamshire, November 2009 

  • Artrom Gallery, Mandala, Unity In Diversity, Rome, Italy, January 2010

  • Ramech-Art article at Tadias Magazine

  • Short listed in The PCG Freelance Consultant Award London, 2010 http://tinyurl.com/lhrwblb

    You can check out more places on her website above and also make enquiries about her products.

Disclaimer: All imagery used in this article has been taken from Ramech Wall Deco, with the permission of Rahel, herself. I do not own the rights to these images and I do not claim to. They are for example purposes only. Thank you!

Big News for my Writing Career!

On the 23rd of March 2017, it will mark 1 year since the release of my first novel – Children of the Movement. Exciting stuff right?

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Children of the Movement was a book that I had poured my heart and soul into for years and when I finally held it in my hands after signing the contract to have it published it honestly felt like I had achieved every dream I have had since I was a child.

My cousin, Courtney Greener designed the cover which is something we wanted to do together since childhood and now I have found out that it’s in Waterstones! How amazing!

Synopsis: A world brainwashed into following the wrong moral as children are starved of the imagination to believe anything different. Bethany-Anne begins her journey of self-discovery with help from friends she meets in and around the prison-like sector that she once called home. No one is safe to dream what they want to dream or love who they want to love… until the movement begins.

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So, with that being said, here is another exciting announcement, I will be releasing my new novel “The Price of Fabulous” on 04/06/2017 to mark my sister’s birthday in honour of her giving the book it the amazing title.

Synopsis:

“The story you are about to witness is not a happy one. It’s more of a struggle, really. It’s a journey into womanhood but the path we were forced upon isn’t pretty. I’m Kayla Charis, by the way, and this is the story of me and my younger sister, Georgia and how we became who we are.

Mum was a good woman but her infatuations with men were the problem. They were the monsters we feared in the dark. Nothing was coming out of our wardrobes or from under our beds to scare us in the night. They came from the next room whenever they pleased.

Mum was married to her job but she had many sordid affairs with less than worthy gentlemen. It was these men that were responsible for this story. They do not deserve a thank you.”

 

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