Suicide – It’s not selfish

Following the recent suicide of the lead singer of Linkin Park, Chester Bennington, the Internet was filled with people expressing their condolences for his family.

Chester Bennington died at the age of 41 after being found hanging in his bedroom after a long battle with his addiction to drugs and alcohol, as well as depression. Earlier this year, Bennington had an interview with Music Choice in which he voiced his concerns about his illness:

“My whole life, I’ve just felt a little off, I find myself getting into these patterns of behaviour or thought – especially when I’m stuck up here [in my head]; I like to say that, ‘This is like a bad neighbourhood, and I should not go walking alone.’” – Chester Bennington

Earlier this year, Chester lost his close friend, Chris Cornell, a singer best known for his involvement with the rock bands Soundgarden and Audioslave. Chester was found dead on Thursday (20/07/2017), this day would have marked the 53rd birthday of Cornell.

Many tributes for friends and family of Chester have been all over the internet for the last few days but the internet is full of trolls out there who say things like this…

Let’s take a minute to educate ignorance, shall we…

Depression is a mental illness but an illness all the same. People do not choose to have it and often spend a long time suffering in silence before they are able to find the courage to seek help. The trouble is, help is hard to find with a long waiting list for counselling and admissions to mental institutions, often people just resort to the comfort of family and friends or medication as means of solving the problem.

The medication works by forcing the brain to release serotonin (a happy hormone) to make you happier but it isn’t real happiness, it’s just chemicals. When a patient starts taking antidepressants it can take 6 to 8 weeks to improve the patient’s mood but during this time, the shock to the system caused by the production of a hormone that the brain isn’t used to producing it can make them worse.

The thing is about illnesses like these is that it’s very hard for someone who doesn’t suffer from it to understand because you can’t understand what it is like to be imprisoned in your own mind until you are.

It is easy for a non-sufferer to tell someone to get help when they don’t know how hard it is to find or that they don’t understand that sometimes “professional help” doesn’t work. Sometimes it doesn’t matter how loud you scream, no one is listening.

Chester made comments in interviews about how he just wanted to ‘lay down and die.’ Imagine how different it would be if someone took that seriously…

As for those saying it was selfish because he has 6 children that he has left behind, remember that depression makes you feel like the whole world is better off without you when it’s not. The noise in your head can get so loud that you can’t hear the people who care about you anymore. It’s not selfish. It has claimed the lives of so many great people on this earth like Robin Williams, Kurt Cobain and much more.

A prisoner doesn’t want to be a prisoner. Someone who is imprisoned in their own mind doesn’t want to be like that and certainly didn’t ask for it. Suicide is an escape when they feel like there is no other option. They’re desperate. People need to pay attention to the warning signs, the cries for help, that way they might be able to save a life.


The Silent Killers – Suffering From Anxiety and Depression

Anxiety is feeling like your friends don’t like you when you haven’t seen them for a while.

Depression is not going out when you have the choice to because you can’t face getting out of bed.

Anxiety is getting angry and frustrated when having to interact with others.

Depression is the crash after a good day when the darkness in your mind decides to come back.

Anxiety is the bad stomach you get when your scared of something that makes you sweat and vomit even when you aren’t ill.

Depression is being unable to stop crying until you become so dehydrated that you have a migraine.

Anxiety is the stammer that keeps you quiet when you need to talk to people.

Depression is the damage on the inside that makes you damage the outside.

Both are the negative voices that speak evil words making you feel unwanted.

This is how it is for me anyway… everyone who suffers is different. 

But everyone is wanted…

It’s just hard to listen to the positive voices when the evil ones keep screaming. 

Racism On Dating Sites

Racism on dating sites is a real issue and those types of women make swiping right on tinder resulting in slightly awkward conversations that assume you’re a racist because you’re a white girl. 

There are still some women out there who won’t date a man because he is black and they actually tell these men that their race is what’s stopping them from dating. This obviously makes these men very insecure and they tend to search for a woman but if they match with a white girl, they hope she is someone who has dated a black man before, as if it makes them feel more secure talking to a woman who has been in an interracial relationship before.

I have spoken to men of a different race to me on apps and my social media and it always results in the same question…

I was puzzled as to why race matters so much. So, obviously I had to ask , at first they denied that it mattered but I stayed persistent and the answer I got was actually really sad…

I don’t understand why someone would match with someone on a dating site if they won’t actually date them due to their race. These men shouldn’t be made to feel like their race is what is stopping them from finding a partner. 

Imagine being so closed minded about race that you miss out on a decent man because of the colour of their skin. Wow, ladies…

10 Signs You’re in an Abusive Relationship

Abuse can sometimes be a hard thing to distinguish, especially if it isn’t 100% obvious that it’s happening. It can be true what they say, love is blind. You could be told time and time again by all your friends that you ‘need to get out of there’ or ‘get rid of them’ but until you see it yourself or wake up from whatever fairy tale romance that you think you are in, it is impossible to get out.

As a woman who has experience abuse both physically and mentally in relationships, I have compiled this list of signs so you can recognise them yourself.


Top 3 Short Films That Will Hit You Hard!

These short films have gone viral over the past few years and have captured the attention of many people around the world. One of the main reasons that  they have had such a hype surrounding them is because they tackle issues that are hard hitting to the public.

3 – Break Free (Ruby Rose, 2014)

Break Free went viral across social media in 2015 due to the heavy publicity that Ruby Rose received from entering the cast of  Orange Is The New Black. The film was directed by Ruby Rose herself and uploaded to YouTube on 14th July 2014. The short film focuses primarily on gender roles and the idea of gender fluidity. The film raises awareness of what life can be like when you are different than social norms (e.g. bigender and transgender). In the film we see Ruby Rose transform herself from a woman into a man through clothing and behavioral stereotypes. No wonder people claimed that she made the question their sexuality. – The film has now reached over 15 million views on YouTube.

2 – ReMoved (Nathanial Matanick, 2014)

ReMoved was released on YouTube on the 11th March 2014 and although it only has just over 4 million views the issues expressed in the narrative are certainly hard hitting and tear inducing. ReMoved follows the life of a young girl and her brother as they are taken from a violent and unstable home to live life between foster homes until they find a foster parent who won’t give up on them or abuse them. The narrative follows on in part 2 where we see that the young girl as a grown woman who has broken the cycle of abuse to become a child care practitioner. The second part has just under 900,000 views which is a shame as it tackles the stories of victims of child abuse and expresses true to life thoughts and feelings of a victim of this kind of abuse.

“Sometimes someone hurts you so bad; it stops hurting at all. Until something makes you feel again. Then it all comes back. Every word. Every hurt. Every moment.” – Zoe

1 – Love Is All You Need (Kim Rocco Shields, 2012)

Love Is All You Need went viral because it exposed hard-hitting experiences of homophobic abuse only reversed to show what it would be like if heterophobia was in place of it. It effectively changes the ideologies of people who have homophobic values as they get to see that the bullying they inflict can cause suicide. The film was uploaded to YouTube on 16th August 2012 and has just over 3.5 million views. Controversy was brought around this film in 2015 as a teacher in the US reportedly lost her job for showing this film to her students as a method of tackling homophobia.

Short films conventionally tackle issues (e.g. abuse etc.) that larger, Hollywood films would usually avoid for purposes of attracting a universal audience. These short films have certainly used this convention to impact the audience emotionally and are effective in raising awareness of the social taboos their stories cover.