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PCOS Awareness 2017 – The blog post catch up!

September is PCOS awareness month and during the course of this month, I will be doing daily blog posts about different aspects of the illness. This is today’s post and I wanted to use it to link you to posts I have done in the past about it before I start writing new content. So here they are below:

Happy reading cysters. xx

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‘Walt Before Mickey’ is such an important movie

Walt Before Mickey is the amazing story of Walter Disney in his journey to the character that made his company the success it is today. Mickey Mouse.

“It all started with a mouse.” – Walt Disney

I have watched and re-watched this film, over and over again on Netflix and I think it is becoming one of my favorite films of all time. I’m not just saying that because I’m a life long Disney fan. The truth is I would still love it if I wasn’t.

The story of Disney is the pursuit of a dream, a passion that you have had since childhood. He may say that it all started with a mouse but his talent started with the sketch book his aunt gave him as a child.

He wanted to run his own company which lead to failure, after failure, until his eventual success. 

This film is so inspirational because it shows that even the most successful people in the world didn’t have everything spoon fed to them. They had to work hard and pick themselves up, time and time again. They needed to make themselves stronger and better because they knew what they were meant for. 

Walt didn’t give up, so why should you?

Why you need to read these…

Over the past few months while I have been writing The Price Of Fabulous, I read books which had similar themes to the story I am trying to capture. The Price of Fabulous is my survival story but because I am normally trapped in my love of fantasy or dystopian fiction. I wasn’t sure how to capture my pain so I read other people who have told their stories and these people are so inspirational to me. I’m still fighting the aftermath of my struggle so seeing how they have come out of it is very comforting.

Here is the list of the books I have read and why they have been so important as I tell my story:

Tortured – Victoria Spry (with Kate Moore) – 2015

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Tortured is the survival story of Victoria Spry as she was raised in the sadistic arms of Britain’s evilist mum, Eurice Spry. ‘Torrie’ was adopted by Eunrice at the age of five after being in her foster care from being less than a year old. She was tortured, beaten, starved and blamed for things that couldn’t possibly be her fault… like the deaths of her sisters in a car accident.

Eunrice put Victoria and her siblings, Alloma and Christopher, through hell for 19 years before Victoria broke her silence to send her down for her crimes – even though she only ended off staying inside for 7 years of her 14 year sentence from 2007.

“Just because you’ve made mistakes, it doesn’t make you an evil person.” – Victoria Spry

This was one of the first books I read when looking for inspiration as my story starts from the abuse I had suffered through childhood too. I had my scribbles in childhood notebooks but I wanted to capture the memories from these scribbles in a way that would have an impact on my reader. I wanted to know how to turn my childhood diary into an impactful, eye-opener. This book made me see that I needed to write from the heart and focus on how the events made me feel.

I cried a lot during reading this, mainly because I identified a lot with Victoria, how the beatings would make her feel, the  guilt, the silence and more so the struggle with a series of mental health problems, leading to alcoholism.

Sickened – Julie Gregory – 2003

{9C29F11E-D802-43BC-BF66-64ACB0058A61}Img400Sickened is the story of a young girl who was repeatedly x-rayed, missing school and getting weaker in the persuit of an illness that had been created in her mother’s mind. Munchausen by Proxy (MBP) is the world’s most hidden and dangerous form of child abuse, but Julie Gregory not only survived, she escaped the powerful orbit of her mother’s madness and rebuilt her identity as a vibrant, healthy young woman:not solely a victim of child abuse.

This book is an incredible honest roller-coaster of emotion. It was incredibly eye-openining to me and enabled me to learn about a form of child abuse that I had actually never heard of prior to reading it. It is a sick kind of “love” at the hands of the victim’s narcissistic mother and a father who covertly collaborates with the systematic abuse instigated by his wife. A very hard-hitting book to read because of the onslaught of terror and rage felt by the young Julie and of the craziness of the family system. There are a few pointers as to what drove Julie’s mother to do such a hideous thing to her own child but you probably won’t feel too sorry for her.

“Well, honey, I just can’t see my little girl go out there in a bathing suit and get laughed at. You got no tits, no hips, no ass, Sissy. You look terrible in a bathing suit. Kids are cruel, sweetie, they’ll just make fun of you.” – Julie’s Mother

Although, this book was a facinating and gripping read, the only thing that I could identify with was the survival part, that is what will help me to write the end of The Price Of Fabulous.

You Can’t Run – Mandy Thomas (with Kate Moore) – 2015

CLCLudSWoAErGaq.jpgYou Can’t Run is the survival story of young Mandy, entering a relationship at the age of eighteen that turned into a violent trap that she thought she would never escape. It wasn’t long after she’d met him that she was under his spell but as these relationships always do, they loose their spark and they turn dark. She never thought she would escape him but then he went to far and she knew she would have to escape to survive.

“He would say to me, ‘You can’t stop me – no one can!’ There was no let-up from his evil. I knew he would never stop so I just had to do what I could to survive.” – Mandy Thomas

I wanted to read this book to be able to know how to capture the struggle of a domestically abusive relationship (from both a victim’s and an observer’s perspective). I am good at many things, but finding the right words to capture emotions about the things that I have been through isn’t one of them. I’ve been through a lot of sh*t. I just don’t know how to talk about it.

Valley of the Dolls – Jacqueline Susann – 1966

valley-of-the-dolls1Valley of the Dolls is the story of beautiful, young and most importantly impressionable women who are struggling at the bottom of the entertainment industry. This is their story of their journey to the top, but when they reach there, they have no where left to go, other than the valley of dolls.

It is a novel about the friendship between three women, the perils and rewards of fame, and chemical dependency. The story spans twenty years, from 1945 to 1965, and is set primarily in New York City. Anne Welles, Neely O’Hara, and Jennifer North become friends and roommates, find fame, get married and take lovers, and turn to drugs to cope with problems they encounter.

“When you’re climbing Mount Everest, nothing is easy. You just take one step at a time, never look back and always keep your eyes glued to the top.” – Jacqueline Susann

I chose to read this book because it shows young people, falling back on substance abuse when they encounter problems. It also involves chasing dreams in the entertainment industry, which resembles ‘Georgia’s’ method of survival.

Am I Normal Yet? – Holly Bourne – 2015

Am I Normal Yet? is one of the most honest books about the mind of a teenage girl I have read yet. It is the story of a girl called Evie, who only wants to be normal, after having a mental breakdown in school. She starts college and is no longer known as the-girl-who-went-nuts. Everything is going great until she realises she’s the only one who’s never been in a relationship.

26017107._UY200_Relationships probably aren’t the brightest idea for anyone with serious mental health issues as they can mess with your head. But she finds a man, and in keeping her private life… well.. private, her friends can’t stop her from making this mistake.

“Because now people use the phrase OCD to describe minor personality quirks. “Oooh, I like my pens in a line, I’m so OCD.” NO YOU’RE FUCKING NOT. “Oh my God, I was so nervous about that presentation, I literally had a panic attack.” NO YOU FUCKING DIDN’T. “I’m so hormonal today. I just feel totally bipolar.” SHUT UP, YOU IGNORANT BUMFACE.”  – Holly Bourne

I chose to take inspiration from this book as it perfectly captures the mindset ‘Georgia and Kayla’ had during their teen years in the second half of The Price of Fabulous, I wanted to know how to capture the teenage-girl mindset.

Check out this wattpad account…

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Adam Miles Christoper Bell was a friend of mine at school and soon after we left he became more active with his writing than ever before, especially on his wattpad account. He has often came to me for advice on titles and just writing in general after I recieved my publishing contract for Children of the Movement in 2014.

“I love writing stories and have been trying to write since I was 7 years old, which is when I came up with my first story idea. Ever since then I have been coming up with new ideas but have never got to writing them into an actual story. However, recently I started to get into it again and have started writing many stories. My two favorites being A World Reborn and A Demon Within.” – Adam’s Wattpad bio

Lately, his account has been gaining some heat with readers seeming to be pouring in for his novel “A World Reborn“. The novel has 4 parts so far and is still a working progress.

Synopsis and cover:

64686388-176-k456815“Nothing and no-one is safe anymore. This world is no longer our own and everyday we must hide from the dangers of the threat that now walks these lands.

Only one native dares to stand up against the Invasion. But he will not do it alone.

When the world is being taken from you, the only way to fight back is by breaking the rules, even your own personal ones. The world is being attacked by Invaders. However THESE invaders may just be a little more familiar than you may think…”

Follow @adambell97 on wattpad or like his facebook page.

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My Top 10 Favourite Princess Dianna Quotes

1:

“Carry out a random act of kindness, with no expectation of reward, safe in the knowledge that one day someone might do the same for you.”

2:

“I like to be a free spirit. Some don’t like that, but that’s just the way I am.”

3:

“I don’t go by the rule book. I lead from the heart, not the head.”

4:

“Nothing brings me mire happiness than trying to help the most vulnerable people in society. It is a goal and an essencial part of my life – a kind of destiny. Whoever is in distress can call on me, I will come running, wherever they are.”

5:

“I think the biggest disease the world suffers from today is the disease of people feeling unloved.”

6:

“Family is the most important thing in the world.”

7:

“Hugs do great amounts of good.”

8:

“Every one of us needs to show how much we care for each other and, in the process, care for ourselves.”

9:

“If you find someone you love in your life, then hang on to that love.”

10:

“Only do what your heart tells you.”

How do people live like that…?

I don’t understand how people manage to live constantly asking ‘what if.’ How do those people who grew up with such dreams give up on themselves? They just stop.

Maybe this is because I have always worked towards my goal of being a writer since the age of 4, I don’t know how to stop but I have met people who have dreamed their whole life that they’d be an actor, singer, writer or even a film maker and then one day, in the middle of their journey, they wake up and they just stop. It’s as if one morning they woke up as a different person.

They’ll either drop out of education or they’ll finish it and rather than pursue what they are newly qualified to do, they take the ‘easy’ route and get a dead end job and all plans to be who they want to be or visions of who they are just cease to exist.

I don’t know about you… but people with no ambition, no passion and no goals for their life bore the hell out of me.  I understand that sometimes life gets in the way and people get these jobs because they need the money, that’s just the way the world works but why would you want to stay in a dead end job forever? Why stop looking into your dream job?

Yes, have a job in the mean time but never give up. Never give up when you know you a destined for something greater.

Children who have touched the hearts of millions

It seems like the in the world today more and more children are getting ill… illnesses that you wouldn’t usually expect children to have but these are the children that are changing the way we all see the world. They are making us see the truth, that illness and even death isn’t always fair. So here are a few of the children that have touched the hearts of millions…

Bradley Lowery (17th May 2011 – 7th July 2017)

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Everyone has heard the story of brave Bradley’s battle against neuro blastoma from his diagnosis when he was just 18 months old. He fought for a long time and at one point it was thought that the little one had won his fight but he relapsed and lost his battle in early July.  The youngsters friendship with former Sunderland player, Jermain Defoe tugged at the heart strings of many as the whole world seemed to watch them grow a bond that seemed unbreakable.

Charlie Gard (Born: 4th August 2016)

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Charlie Gard was born in August 2016 and seemed perfectly healthy but soon after his health began to deteriorate and it was found that the tot has a disease called mitochondrial DNA depletion syndrome, as both of his parents Connie and Chris were unknowingly carrying the faulty gene. The parents were told by the staff of Great Olmond Street hospital that their child would not be well enough to travel to the US for treatment. The parents took court action and the legal battle has been publicised for months but this week they called off the court case because of their child’s health. The family now want Charlie to die peacfully at home but the doctors are refusing that too.

The court cases has resulted in the doctors at the hospital recieving death threats.

Eileidh Rose Paterson (14th March 2017 – 1st July 2017)

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Eileidh Rose Paterson was born on 14 March 2012, weighing 6lb 1oz. Her life changed in May 2014 when she was just 2 years old as she started to experience difficulty breathing. Her mother, Gail, also noticed that Eileidh’s tummy was bloated. Their GP prescribed medication for trapped wind and told them to return the next day if Eileidh was no better.  The family GP immediately arranged for Eileidh to be seen at the Royal Aberdeen Children’s Hospital. After many tests throughout the night, Gail was taken into a small room and told the devastating news that a tumour had been found in Eileidh’s abdomen and that an MRI scan was needed. Unfortunately the scan results showed that she had Stage 4 High Risk neuroblastoma. In her final days the family arranged for Eileidh to have her dream wedding with her best friend.

Albie Joe Ramshaw (Born: November 2015)

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Albie-Joe Ramshaw was diagnosed with leukaemia aged just six-weeks-old in December 2015.  He was taken to a walk-in centre by loving mum India for problems with his chest when the problem was first uncovered. The plucky youngster was given steroids and feeding tubes during the course of his chemotherapy. In September last year, Albie’s blood tests showed that he was winning his battle as his blood count tests were rising but over the in the last few months the he has become ill again after relapsing. By the start of this year, his hair was growing back after undergoing chemotherapy treatment but recently Albie, of Houghton, has taken a turn for the worse which has left him in need of a bone marrow transplant. Now fundraisers are being held for the youngster in an attempt to raise £5000 to cover hospital costs for the family.