Books

Why you need to read these…

Over the past few months while I have been writing The Price Of Fabulous, I read books which had similar themes to the story I am trying to capture. The Price of Fabulous is my survival story but because I am normally trapped in my love of fantasy or dystopian fiction. I wasn’t sure how to capture my pain so I read other people who have told their stories and these people are so inspirational to me. I’m still fighting the aftermath of my struggle so seeing how they have come out of it is very comforting.

Here is the list of the books I have read and why they have been so important as I tell my story:

Tortured – Victoria Spry (with Kate Moore) – 2015

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Tortured is the survival story of Victoria Spry as she was raised in the sadistic arms of Britain’s evilist mum, Eurice Spry. ‘Torrie’ was adopted by Eunrice at the age of five after being in her foster care from being less than a year old. She was tortured, beaten, starved and blamed for things that couldn’t possibly be her fault… like the deaths of her sisters in a car accident.

Eunrice put Victoria and her siblings, Alloma and Christopher, through hell for 19 years before Victoria broke her silence to send her down for her crimes – even though she only ended off staying inside for 7 years of her 14 year sentence from 2007.

“Just because you’ve made mistakes, it doesn’t make you an evil person.” – Victoria Spry

This was one of the first books I read when looking for inspiration as my story starts from the abuse I had suffered through childhood too. I had my scribbles in childhood notebooks but I wanted to capture the memories from these scribbles in a way that would have an impact on my reader. I wanted to know how to turn my childhood diary into an impactful, eye-opener. This book made me see that I needed to write from the heart and focus on how the events made me feel.

I cried a lot during reading this, mainly because I identified a lot with Victoria, how the beatings would make her feel, the  guilt, the silence and more so the struggle with a series of mental health problems, leading to alcoholism.

Sickened – Julie Gregory – 2003

{9C29F11E-D802-43BC-BF66-64ACB0058A61}Img400Sickened is the story of a young girl who was repeatedly x-rayed, missing school and getting weaker in the persuit of an illness that had been created in her mother’s mind. Munchausen by Proxy (MBP) is the world’s most hidden and dangerous form of child abuse, but Julie Gregory not only survived, she escaped the powerful orbit of her mother’s madness and rebuilt her identity as a vibrant, healthy young woman:not solely a victim of child abuse.

This book is an incredible honest roller-coaster of emotion. It was incredibly eye-openining to me and enabled me to learn about a form of child abuse that I had actually never heard of prior to reading it. It is a sick kind of “love” at the hands of the victim’s narcissistic mother and a father who covertly collaborates with the systematic abuse instigated by his wife. A very hard-hitting book to read because of the onslaught of terror and rage felt by the young Julie and of the craziness of the family system. There are a few pointers as to what drove Julie’s mother to do such a hideous thing to her own child but you probably won’t feel too sorry for her.

“Well, honey, I just can’t see my little girl go out there in a bathing suit and get laughed at. You got no tits, no hips, no ass, Sissy. You look terrible in a bathing suit. Kids are cruel, sweetie, they’ll just make fun of you.” – Julie’s Mother

Although, this book was a facinating and gripping read, the only thing that I could identify with was the survival part, that is what will help me to write the end of The Price Of Fabulous.

You Can’t Run – Mandy Thomas (with Kate Moore) – 2015

CLCLudSWoAErGaq.jpgYou Can’t Run is the survival story of young Mandy, entering a relationship at the age of eighteen that turned into a violent trap that she thought she would never escape. It wasn’t long after she’d met him that she was under his spell but as these relationships always do, they loose their spark and they turn dark. She never thought she would escape him but then he went to far and she knew she would have to escape to survive.

“He would say to me, ‘You can’t stop me – no one can!’ There was no let-up from his evil. I knew he would never stop so I just had to do what I could to survive.” – Mandy Thomas

I wanted to read this book to be able to know how to capture the struggle of a domestically abusive relationship (from both a victim’s and an observer’s perspective). I am good at many things, but finding the right words to capture emotions about the things that I have been through isn’t one of them. I’ve been through a lot of sh*t. I just don’t know how to talk about it.

Valley of the Dolls – Jacqueline Susann – 1966

valley-of-the-dolls1Valley of the Dolls is the story of beautiful, young and most importantly impressionable women who are struggling at the bottom of the entertainment industry. This is their story of their journey to the top, but when they reach there, they have no where left to go, other than the valley of dolls.

It is a novel about the friendship between three women, the perils and rewards of fame, and chemical dependency. The story spans twenty years, from 1945 to 1965, and is set primarily in New York City. Anne Welles, Neely O’Hara, and Jennifer North become friends and roommates, find fame, get married and take lovers, and turn to drugs to cope with problems they encounter.

“When you’re climbing Mount Everest, nothing is easy. You just take one step at a time, never look back and always keep your eyes glued to the top.” – Jacqueline Susann

I chose to read this book because it shows young people, falling back on substance abuse when they encounter problems. It also involves chasing dreams in the entertainment industry, which resembles ‘Georgia’s’ method of survival.

Am I Normal Yet? – Holly Bourne – 2015

Am I Normal Yet? is one of the most honest books about the mind of a teenage girl I have read yet. It is the story of a girl called Evie, who only wants to be normal, after having a mental breakdown in school. She starts college and is no longer known as the-girl-who-went-nuts. Everything is going great until she realises she’s the only one who’s never been in a relationship.

26017107._UY200_Relationships probably aren’t the brightest idea for anyone with serious mental health issues as they can mess with your head. But she finds a man, and in keeping her private life… well.. private, her friends can’t stop her from making this mistake.

“Because now people use the phrase OCD to describe minor personality quirks. “Oooh, I like my pens in a line, I’m so OCD.” NO YOU’RE FUCKING NOT. “Oh my God, I was so nervous about that presentation, I literally had a panic attack.” NO YOU FUCKING DIDN’T. “I’m so hormonal today. I just feel totally bipolar.” SHUT UP, YOU IGNORANT BUMFACE.”  – Holly Bourne

I chose to take inspiration from this book as it perfectly captures the mindset ‘Georgia and Kayla’ had during their teen years in the second half of The Price of Fabulous, I wanted to know how to capture the teenage-girl mindset.

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Check out this wattpad account…

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Adam Miles Christoper Bell was a friend of mine at school and soon after we left he became more active with his writing than ever before, especially on his wattpad account. He has often came to me for advice on titles and just writing in general after I recieved my publishing contract for Children of the Movement in 2014.

“I love writing stories and have been trying to write since I was 7 years old, which is when I came up with my first story idea. Ever since then I have been coming up with new ideas but have never got to writing them into an actual story. However, recently I started to get into it again and have started writing many stories. My two favorites being A World Reborn and A Demon Within.” – Adam’s Wattpad bio

Lately, his account has been gaining some heat with readers seeming to be pouring in for his novel “A World Reborn“. The novel has 4 parts so far and is still a working progress.

Synopsis and cover:

64686388-176-k456815“Nothing and no-one is safe anymore. This world is no longer our own and everyday we must hide from the dangers of the threat that now walks these lands.

Only one native dares to stand up against the Invasion. But he will not do it alone.

When the world is being taken from you, the only way to fight back is by breaking the rules, even your own personal ones. The world is being attacked by Invaders. However THESE invaders may just be a little more familiar than you may think…”

Follow @adambell97 on wattpad or like his facebook page.

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This is a little disappointing but I hope you understand…

As you all know, in exactly 2 weeks time I had my heart set on releasing my new novel: The Price Of Fabulous…

This is now going to be postponed until later this year. I am going to explain the reasons why, let’s just hope you can understand them.

The book is in the finishing stages and is on track for release but unfortunately I have had a dramatic relapse in mental health with regards to my anxiety and depression through personal events that were unforeseen until I came home from finishing my first year at BCU.

The reason why I want to postpone the release is because I don’t feel like I am well enough to do my best promotional work while I seek the medical attention I require.

I also have become more aware that I have slacked off with my blogging so I will do the best I can to pick it back up again and hopefully I will have a new release date for you soon.

Thank you! 

The Price Of Fabulous – J Squared Podcast 

Hey guys!

As you know, the work for my book promotion for The Price Of Fabulous is now in full swing.


But this morning’s work was so exciting that I just have to share it with all of you!

I was invited onto a weekly podcast show called J Squared to talk about The Price Of Fabulous so… if you want to know more about the book then this is definitely what you need to listen to! 

Listen to J Squared interview here!
Make sure to watch this blog for more info on promotions.

Contact me if you would like to be involved via email: thedowngradeproject@gmail.com

Big News for my Writing Career!

On the 23rd of March 2017, it will mark 1 year since the release of my first novel – Children of the Movement. Exciting stuff right?

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Children of the Movement was a book that I had poured my heart and soul into for years and when I finally held it in my hands after signing the contract to have it published it honestly felt like I had achieved every dream I have had since I was a child.

My cousin, Courtney Greener designed the cover which is something we wanted to do together since childhood and now I have found out that it’s in Waterstones! How amazing!

Synopsis: A world brainwashed into following the wrong moral as children are starved of the imagination to believe anything different. Bethany-Anne begins her journey of self-discovery with help from friends she meets in and around the prison-like sector that she once called home. No one is safe to dream what they want to dream or love who they want to love… until the movement begins.

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So, with that being said, here is another exciting announcement, I will be releasing my new novel “The Price of Fabulous” on 04/06/2017 to mark my sister’s birthday in honour of her giving the book it the amazing title.

Synopsis:

“The story you are about to witness is not a happy one. It’s more of a struggle, really. It’s a journey into womanhood but the path we were forced upon isn’t pretty. I’m Kayla Charis, by the way, and this is the story of me and my younger sister, Georgia and how we became who we are.

Mum was a good woman but her infatuations with men were the problem. They were the monsters we feared in the dark. Nothing was coming out of our wardrobes or from under our beds to scare us in the night. They came from the next room whenever they pleased.

Mum was married to her job but she had many sordid affairs with less than worthy gentlemen. It was these men that were responsible for this story. They do not deserve a thank you.”

 

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5 Ways I Relate To Harley Quinn

Harley Quinn aka. Doctor Harleen Quinnzel… Let’s be honest here she is the prettiest and most lovable female psychopath on screen, in animations and comics… but for some reason, I can relate to her character quite a lot.

5: She Knows She Annoys People

Harley is very self-aware of how annoying she can be and knows that it just might get her hurt or even killed. Let’s face it, in the real world, you are often told not to open your mouth to the wrong person because it will get you hurt and I am always self-conscious about annoying people. So much so, that I now warn people that I will annoy them eventually.

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4: Her Cringe-Worthy Pick-Up Lines to Her Beloved Mr. J

We are all known for making cringy puns and pick up lines when all up in some boy or girls DMs, well Harley becomes queen of them all as she tries to bed her pudding in Batman: The Animated Series.

Let’s be honest, I can’t be the only one who relates to this way of flirting, right?

3: She Had High Aspirations In Life

Let’s not forget that before she became the infamous Harley Quinn she was Doctor Harleen Quinzel of Arkham Asylum in Gotham. Being a doctor takes a lot of hard work and dedication, especially to work in a psychiatric hospital filled with the world’s craziest criminals, am I right?

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It is a shame that she gave it all up for Mr. J, but the wrong kind of relationship such as the domestic abuse she receives from her “pudding”  can ruin all aspects of your life.

2: She Wears A Smile For Her Man

In a violent relationship, you do anything to keep the abuser happy…

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Her referral to him as her “boss” rather than her partner, shows her position in Mr. J’s life as not only does he think her inferior but she thinks that of herself too. She’ll do anything to keep him happy, which seems to include smiling on demand.

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1: She is a Domestic Abuse Survivor

OHHHHH, here’s the part everyone who idolizes her  9because of Suicide Squad) forgets about…Harley and Joker aren’t “goals”.

She’s a victim, or more was, she seems to have become more of a survivor now.

Sure, she doesn’t handle it as well as real abuse victims would… becoming a serial killer and all that but she survives and she’s definitely a stronger woman from embracing the effects the abuse have had on her mind. She’s fierce!

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