“I wasn’t ill because I was fat… I was fat because I was ill.”

I have blogged a lot about my weight-loss over the last 9 months and my struggles with getting that smaller waist due to PCOS.  Call me stupid… but despite almost being at my goal weight, ‘fat-shamers’ on the internet still piss me off because they think that bullying and belittling someone for their weight will help them fight it… don’t be so stupid guys.

For a start… you can’t fix your body to fix your mind, as I have said in a previous post. You need to love yourself if you want to be able to make a change and take care of yourself properly… why would you want to care for a body you hate? Exactly, you wouldn’t… so how exactly did you think that making someone hate their body will help? If anything, even if they did try, your years of damage from calling them fat will probably result in them being unable to see any results. Body dysmorphia is a very real thing and I can tell you that the second someone calls me fat, I see myself as the 5 stone heavier woman I was in September 2017.

The next thing is where I point out the biggest flaw in the statement ‘just lose weight’…

I tried for three years to get my weight back down to a healthy weight after my HORMONAL IMBALANCE caused by my ILLNESS made my INSULIN mess up and resulted in me gain 5 stone in the short space of three months. The most I was ever able to lose in that time was 2 pounds. 2 pounds after going the the gym 3-5 days a week and clean eating, it was pathetic. I was still sugar crashing every afternoon and my weight barely budged.

I begged and pleaded with doctors, crying in their offices and was always told to ‘just try harder’ before eventually, 3 years later I was diagnosed with PCOS and sent to see a specialist dietician who diagnosed me with Insulin Resistance (Hyperglycemia), eventually this will result in me having Type 2 diabetes. Only then was I be able to have the answer and get the results I want… even then, it’s not without its struggles. Low GI diets are beyond restrictive and unreasonable, not everyone can commit to it if they have such a busy, eat-on-the-go type of life style.

After seeing New Look’s Fat Tax (which I am 100000000% disgusted by despite the fact that I’m not effected by it) I was shocked to see that many people are so uneducated when it comes to the human body. Dieting is not a ‘one-size-fits-all’ solution… every persons body works differently, needs different things and has varied metabolisms and if you can’t understand why some people can’t ‘just loose weight’ then keep your comments well away from the internet… There are millions of people out there struggling with their weight because of hormonal imbalances etc. and everyone is on a journey, if they haven’t found the right path for them yet then it’s no ones business but there’s and companies like New Look have no right to charge anyone for that.


I didn’t get ill because I was fat, I got fat because I was ill. A hormonal change in me caused problems with my insulin which meant the food I used to be able to process, I couldn’t any more. So, just so you’re aware here are a list of mental and physical illness/body changes that make someone struggle with weight, just to make it clearer for you all:

  • Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS)
  • Hyperthyroidism
  • Gastroesophageal reflux disease
  • Irritable bowel syndrome
  • Gestational diabetes
  • Prolactinoma
  • Persistent depressive disorder
  • Menopause
  • Pregancany
  • Generalized anxiety disorder
  • Cushing’s syndrome

Soon I will be saying good bye to this blog…

Over the past two years I have written many articles for this blog and in many ways it has carried me through university. I now feel like I need to move on from it though, it has simply become one of those things that I have out grown.

I will be posting until September 2018. It’s time to move on to bigger and better blogs but I won’t delete this one. This one has been my voice for the last few years and I don’t think I would want to erase where I have come from.

My final post will contain a link to my new blog and I hope you will all follow me over there.

I would like to say a special thanks to bloggers such as koolkosherkitchen for all the support and giving me the most likes out of all my followers.

In my third year of uni I will be running a bigger and better news blog for my course and I would love to see all your support there… Thank you for following.